Noticing

ha SO I started this blog.
and I have no idea what I was goin to write about.
Jeri moves in today.
I have a new friend.
his name is Rocky.
Zach is really good at making my heart hurt.
I'm not feeling cloudy anymore.
my keyboard is being really stupid.
I am so grumpy.
uhhhhh


I know what I want.

All Used Up

Thursday night I had practice. I had a very grand conversation with my coach and it was fantastic. Grand and fantastic in one sentence.
Friday I went to a movie with Jay...we went to see Mall Cop...funny-and not as predictable as I might have guessed.
I also went to the Cascade/La Salle girls basketball game AND I went bowling...and stayed out until 2:30 in the morning...yes I was delirious beyond belief. It consisted of:

1. Sitting in a car with Melissa and Kode and Zach (after having consumed a mountain dew...or as Gilmoure has pointed out...Mtn Dew.)
2. Driving to the mall where I saw a mentally challenged puppy dog-tongue out and eyes crossed.
3. We sat in the mall parking lot and I danced around and sang loudly, and had a conversation with Anthony. Ah it was good to see that boy.
4. Then we went to Shopko..they kicked us out because they were "closed" so we went to Winco...and got energy drinks. (Cause I totttttally needed one of those...hahaaaa NOT) I was seriously outta my mind. They put up a sign and everything.... "Ema has temporarily lost her mind, check back tomorrow afternoon."
5. Then we went bowling. Oh yessss Bowling. I broke a thumbnail. It was fun, my name on the screen was "Free Spirit" ahh I love my nickname.

Saturday I destroyed, and then un-destroyed my room. It is now EMAculate. (Immaculate-only Ema version)
Then Saturday night I hung out around the house and felt good cause my room was clean. I'm pretty sure this day I went to a magic show with Bradley.

Sunday I went to church (Jay came) It was good.
then Sunday afternoon I hung out with Kody and Zachery. I hung up all of Kodes posters, and he and I named shadows and talked about life. He chills me out...he's like my own personal brand of heroine..only in a friendship sort of way. He literally controls my mood just like Jasper. (in case you havent noticed, that was 2...count them, 2, Twilight references) He is now drawing me two posters that will be killlller.
Melissa drove us all to Mcdonalds and bought ice cream...Sawyer showed up and that was funny.

Monday I woke up with a migrain, and so I stayed home all day. Kode, Melissa, and Zach all came to my house and we sat in Melissa's car and ate sour patch kids, reeces pieces, reeces peanut butter cups, and nerds. They chilled me out cause I was stressing about my current issues with life.
ie-The TWIN girls...that will end up at my house on a constant basis.
-Jeri...yeah..let's just leave it at that.
-my step dad making me feel useless
-and fighting with my mother about meaningless things.


This morning I also woke up with a headache.
Ugh
yucky.
welllllllll Imma go. I'm doneeeeeee.

oh new favorite song... "Losing sleep"
AMAZING.

I love you.
=D

He was really worried about his shoe apparently

Uhm I took pictures of myself yesterday...and tried to write good picture captions.

it didnt quite work out...

so now I'm going to go get quotes and put them on here...and later I will steal them from myself..and put them on Myspace.



The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before.



You're nothing short of my everything.



"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."



"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal."



"Kiss me and you will see stars; love me and I will give them to you."



"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."



Oooh I'm a dancer, and I move to the rhythm of the music Oh it carries me away. Yes, I'm a dancer I was born to live this life I did not choose it And when the song begins to play Oh please, please will you dance with me?



Oh I'm a dreamer, well my head is in the clouds i keep believin' they really do come true



Life is like riding a bicycle. You don't fall off unless you plan to stop peddling.--



I saw a young boy eating an ice cream cone, ... I smashed it in his face. You know that kid is going to remember me when he's 50.



Wouldn't it be awesome just to come home and know that somewhere in your place there's a monkey you're gonna battle?

ohhhhhh funny times.

Finals are over, and yet I still feel a little incomplete.

Through the calm, and through the storm.

"You and this Creation are incredible, whether you understand that or not. You are wonderful beyond imagination. Just because you make horrendous and destructive choices does not mean you deserve less respect for what you inherently are - the pinnacle of my Creation and the center of my affection."
Can you just FEEL God saying that to you?
I can.

uhm on a more cynical note...
"Eagles may soar, but cougars dont get sucked into jet engines"
and now before you say I'm TOTALLY committing blasphemy...
"Eagles may get sucked into jet engines, but cougars sure make nice rugs...or coats."

Now back to me and God...
"Honey, there's no easy answer that will take your pain away. Believe me, if I had one, I'd use it now. I have no magic wand to wave over you and make it all better. Life takes a bit of time and a lot of relationship."
it's so good to know that God doesnt want us to hurt, and this encourages me because I know he wants me to let go of my grief.


"Don't forget that in the midst of all your pain and heartache, you are surrounded by beauty, the wonder of Creation, art, your music and culture, the sounds of laughter and love, of whispered hopes and celebrations, of new life and transformation, of reconciliation and forgiveness. These are the results of your choices, and every choice matters, even the hidden ones."
This quote makes me look at the world differently. Ahhh to be constantly surrounded by beauty and love. Why be depressed? Why let it control me?
(God is bigger than the boogy man)

"Evil is a word we use to describe the absence of Good, just as we use darkness to describe the absence of Light or death to describe the absence of Life. Both evil and darkness can only be understood in relation to Light and Good; they do not have an actual existence. I am Light and I am Good. I am Love and there is no darkness in me. Light and Good actually exist. So, removing yourself from me will plunge you into darkness. Declaring independence from me will result in evil because apart from me, you can only draw upon yourself . That is death because you have separated yourself form me: Life."
*Reminder* I love My God. Which translates into: I need Him.


“‘Does that mean’, asked Mack, ‘that all roads will lead to you?’ ‘Not at all’, smiled Jesus as he reached for the door handle to the shop. ‘Most roads don’t lead anywhere. What it does mean is that I will travel any road to find you.’”

• "And even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Your perfect love is casting out fear And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this lifeI won’t turn backI know You are near." -Matt Redman
• and i will fear no evil for my God is with me and if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear?

• "I’ll praise You in this stormAnd I will lift my handsFor You are who You areNo matter where I am Every tear I’ve cried You hold in Your hand You never left my side And though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm"

• Your grace has found me just as I am Empty handed, but alive in your hands

It's a good day. I have practice tonight =D and then tomorrow...and the next day.

Coincidence

Okay
So here is a pretty freaking hilarious story if I do say so myself.
Last night Jay took two of his old girl friends (not girls he dated, just his friends) out to dinner and a movie.
Wellllll He took them to McGrath’s Fish house…which is where my Cousin, SHAW, works. She was there. (and we were babysitting Killian) Well apparently Jay went to the bathroom, and the two girls (Jessica, and Priscilla) told the Waiter that it was Jay’s birthday. Definitely not. Any who…my cousin sang to him lol lol and made him feel REALLY bad for being out with two girls that weren’t me…on his “birthday” (Shaw didn’t know that we had broken up.) Anyways, He took them too a movie as well…guess who was there? Zach. Haaaa Omg. The two of them texted me THE MOMENT they saw each other. I was rolling on the floor in hysterics, and my mom was freaaaaaaaaked out. It was hilarious.
So if those arent like, the funniest coincidences of ALL time…I honestly don’t know what would be.
=D

You know...

you know you're a high schooler when:

1. You have to be reminded to keep your feet off the doors, repeatedly.
2. There is a rumor going around the school that someone died.
3. uhm I'm not really sure, but I mean I'm sure there's something...oh yeah, the hallways smell like BO.

on to the topic of the day...
Death.

Death in my dreams. Which was lame. And scary.
Death in my book.
Death that's physician assisted.
Yuck Yuck Yuck.

Let's talk about something new.
How about how I have NO authority in this class, at all.

Jake and I had a sing along in ASB today =D
we sang Love Story.
It was amazing times infinity.

I dont think my knuckle is in the right place.
=/

uhm, just to clarify I am slightly confuzzled.
what on EARTH is going on here?
Nope, no profanity.
Let's talk about this....


Love is patient, Love is kind,It does not envy, it does not boast,It is not proud, It is not rude,It is not self-seeking,It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth.Love always protects, always trusts,always hopes, always perseveres.Love bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.Love never ends.


Okay really?
I am not able to love...
it's impossibleeeeee.
haha jkjkjk

I saw God today

I am not a waste of time.
I cant make everyone happy, but I try.
That is a mistake.
Trying to please others will lead to being taken advantage of.
And after you’ve been all used up nobody wants you anymore.
And heartache is the worst kind of pain.
“Do you know who you are?”
“No, it’s a beautiful thing, I can be whoever I want to be, No one can define me if I havent defined myself”
How can you judge who a person is if you havent lived their life? My life is unique, as is every single person’s on the planet. We all do different things, and test different waters.
Trying to change people is the worst idea. I cant change someone…they have to willingly change on their own. Heck. I can barely change myself…how can I expect someone else to mend their ways?
Uhm.. The words get all confused, but you’ll get the gist.
It’s been a weird weekend.
It’s a cool story though, and I am SO happy.(you'd never guess by the words on the screen though)
=D
I saw God today.

Traitor?

Hahaha
So, I totally forgot to tell you about my AP Biology experience this morning...
We played Jeapordy, which, as apposed to the previously scheduled reading assignment, takes the cake. Uhm, half way through...my team (made up of Blaine, Alexis, and Jaxsen) was losing terribly...Other teams had people such as Eva Hampton, Hiedi, Kate, Kiely, and so the losing thing is not such a shocker. Any who, we were given the choice to trade one of our players, for a different player...I volunteered myself (because, honestly...I was plotting something) My team switched me for Jessica, and I was placed on Kate, Kiely, and Heidi's team. haha One question in, and Alexis blatently states "Ema just screwed us over...I think." Oh yes, Lex, I did. =D
needless to say my team won. And I have been shunned from my table.
And Now I am recieving texts that label me the "traitor" hha

My mom thinks this is funny =D we just laughed a lot.
Imma eat now =D
lata gata

Mama Mia!

...

^^^ hahaha







today has been REALLY funny.

it began with the punching out of my ceiling...uhm I'm not sure WHAT I was dreaming about, but I punched it nonetheless.

Anywho then Sawyer drove me to school, it was the usual Swedish singing and such.

And then I got to see Cait-uh-lyn Hoefer.

And then I got some coffee.

And then I got excited about my project for ASB.

And then we watched Mama Mia...sort of
and on top of that Allie and I were laughing about the silly thing I said..that make Sierra blush.
bell Just rang.
my life is boring...I need more to talk about.


tata