have i ever mentioned...

how much I despise english this year??


Well I despise english this year, just to clarify.
mmm...today(or should I say yesterday seeings how it's 12:22 at the current moment?) has been so strange. Fabulous, terrifyingly weird, and just wow.
Yea, thats right freaking midnight and a half and I'm still alive and kickin.

Anyways
I had a really great day.
Found out some fabulous news.
talked to people I love very much.
was incredibly productive.
(and surprisingly awake)
well I went to Callie's Dinner and then to Zach's and Melissa picked us up and we went to Wal Mart to get energy drinks before heading to our final destination (Cascade's Grad) let me tell you it was a very beautiful graduation. STUNNING.
anywho. Sat next to Elliot, my savior for a day.
and Zach. (didnt see KG. Sad day)
had a really great time.
then awkwarrrrrrrrdness as awkward can be..I walk out and find myself standing between the dreaded ex's. thats right, Tyler and Zach within 2 feet of me and 4 feet of eachother. (and let me remind you that Mr. L was somewhere in the building as well.)
They didnt acknowledge each other but both made it pretty clear to me that I was standing in unpleasant boundaries.
So we walked to Elliots car.
Tyler in front with Anthony and the rest of them boys.
and ZAch behind with Elliot.
and me, you guessed it, smack dab in the middle.
ahhh
ok
so now its time to say goodbye to Ty and the other boys.
I hug Tyler and he gets weird...no details...just WEIRD.
weird to the point of he showed up to my house around ten.
He's upset, and incredibly convinced that I'm what he wants. No sex, no alcohol or drugs influencing his words (trust me I know what it's like when he's under those influences) just him completely opening up. and get this, APOLOGIZING.

it was crazy.
so I'm still up because im working on my english project.
Tyler is texting me basically non stop about how he would rather face a coffin full of spiders than let go of me.
ya.
it's kinda to the point where he's stepping into uncharted waters here.
I like this new boy.
I dont want to hurt Ty, but man his timing bites.

He's so sad.
I'm doing all i can...but man I've never even seen Zach this freaking passionate.
It's almost ridiculous.

This is not making any sense because I'm not clear on details
there really is so much more to say.
things about how I had an energy drink and peach rings.
I'm in desperate need of a shower.
so it looks like sleep just aint gonna happen for me tonight (this morning?)
idk
well anyways.
today is Thursday...but it's really my friday.
which stresses me out to infinity because I neeeeed to finish that damn test.
(finished the project though arent you proud?)
woot.
well
I really hope this stuff works out.

uhm goodnightish.