Alright Let's talk about Ema's stress levels shall we??
Yearbook
-Needa have some creative juices and currently I am all juiced out.
*Cover
*Opening opener
*dividers? or not.
*The fact that this book must be epic.
*I have not a Sierra nor an Amy nor a Crystal.
*Yearbook is 7th period...Im a volleyball player...do the math??
ASB
-2 Blood Drives
-Movie Night
-Feb. MOS
-Mr. SHS
-Canned Food Drive
This year is going to be the death of me.
Either that or its gonna be bomb...but so far im leaning towards death.
Because add to that list the two AP classes I'm taking and volleyball, plus I'm in desperate need of a job, so desperate that I'm seriously thinking about working at...dare I say it? Mcdonalds =P
ughhhhh
save me from myself.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Reality Check
yea I knew this was coming.
Im a screw up.
and after reading my last blog I feel like utter crap.
I'm messing things up with Keith as we speak because [big surprise]
Im not over Tyler.
Not even a little bit.
idk what to do.
but I told a lot of people
a lot of things
and now I have to fix it.
and I'm learning that im not ever going to do anything or say anything without consulting with someone firstly.
ahhhhh someone needs to help me out here.
blahhhhhhhhhhh
Im a screw up.
and after reading my last blog I feel like utter crap.
I'm messing things up with Keith as we speak because [big surprise]
Im not over Tyler.
Not even a little bit.
idk what to do.
but I told a lot of people
a lot of things
and now I have to fix it.
and I'm learning that im not ever going to do anything or say anything without consulting with someone firstly.
ahhhhh someone needs to help me out here.
blahhhhhhhhhhh
Saturday, June 13, 2009
where the wind blows
This image is from WhateverLife 2.0 Layouts Default Layouts Tab Layouts
okay so I know THATS random.
but I figured Crystal would love?
and I believe it muchly applies to me and Sierra.
Gah I love you woman.
My life will be utter hell without you in my classes next year.
**cry big huge allimagator tears**
okay so it's one o'clock in the morning.
In case you're curious, which...I KNOW you are.
You have to be.
Because...well, I never post blogs so this has to be, On a scale of 0 to 10.. This is apocalyptical...
that’s right.
Totally blows it off the charts.
And Seeing’s how I know that if I text Sierra right now she would NOT be awake..I decided to blog like a mad woman.
And now ladies and gentlemen..(though I think we can all agree that it’s mostly Ladies on this one..) for your eyes only…I present to you my fabulous day….
June 12, 2009.
(in case anyone was wondering…and for my own future reference because I’m sure as HECK going to want to remember this day)
I sat at home.
For MANY hours.
Complaining of boredom and pain. (which happens to be Kidney Stones) Blah we’re not EVEN gonna go there. It hurts so so bad.
Im going to skip the details.
Basically.
I went to Albany with Zach and his family to witness Zach buying his first vehicle.
Then we went to Elliots.
YOU WILL NEVER GEUSS WHO WAS THERE!!!!!
That’s right, THE boy.
(in case you’re wondering boy’s name is Keith)
=DDD
Aaaaaaaaaaahhhh
What a great name.
Very fitting for such a fabulous boy.
He is SO sweet, no joke.
By far the SWEETEST kid in the books.
Now, im skipping more details…
Which will have to be filled in at a later date cause they are damn good details….
Keith kissed me.
And when I left he walked me to the car.
He likkkkkes me (insert happy dance and squealing here)
Now I’m like on cloud bagillion, because no joke, I’m too happy to only be on cloud nine.
Sierra you havent got a clue how stoked I am.
Seriously.
And btw, thank you for TOTALLY bringing Keith up in conversation today. It’s like you created the night I had in your mind before I even knew it existed.
Lol lol
And Crystal thank you muchly for being a part of my day =DDD
I swear, if I hadn’t talked to the two of you today then things would not have been the same and I would not feel this GOOD!!!!
Better than I’ve felt in a very long time.
Oh and two minor details…
Zach-is crazy (it’s a long story and a part of the details I will have to explain later or in person)
Tyler-is Historyyyyyyyy(more of the details)
Details about Keith in case ya’ll wanna know =DDD
-Good kisser =DDD
-Sweet as heck. Like literally the kinda guy that will open up doors, and call just to say he’s thinking about me.
-Beautiful eyes && Fabulous smile. No joke. Could knock me to the ground if im not careful.
-Im going to let him know me. He’s not gonna judge me or hold anything against me.
-He will not push me to do anything I don’t want to do.
-omggggg (yeah I know that’s not a detail…but can you blame me for not being able to think straight???)
-This. Kid. Is. What. I’ve. Been. Looking. For. PLEASE GUYS DON’T LET ME SCREW THIS UP.
I’m a silly little girl with a pretty big crush.
=DDD
Just let me get lost in this for a little while…
Later you can pull me back into reality.
I NEED this.
I’m enjoying this.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
have i ever mentioned...
how much I despise english this year??
Well I despise english this year, just to clarify.
mmm...today(or should I say yesterday seeings how it's 12:22 at the current moment?) has been so strange. Fabulous, terrifyingly weird, and just wow.
Yea, thats right freaking midnight and a half and I'm still alive and kickin.
Anyways
I had a really great day.
Found out some fabulous news.
talked to people I love very much.
was incredibly productive.
(and surprisingly awake)
well I went to Callie's Dinner and then to Zach's and Melissa picked us up and we went to Wal Mart to get energy drinks before heading to our final destination (Cascade's Grad) let me tell you it was a very beautiful graduation. STUNNING.
anywho. Sat next to Elliot, my savior for a day.
and Zach. (didnt see KG. Sad day)
had a really great time.
then awkwarrrrrrrrdness as awkward can be..I walk out and find myself standing between the dreaded ex's. thats right, Tyler and Zach within 2 feet of me and 4 feet of eachother. (and let me remind you that Mr. L was somewhere in the building as well.)
They didnt acknowledge each other but both made it pretty clear to me that I was standing in unpleasant boundaries.
So we walked to Elliots car.
Tyler in front with Anthony and the rest of them boys.
and ZAch behind with Elliot.
and me, you guessed it, smack dab in the middle.
ahhh
ok
so now its time to say goodbye to Ty and the other boys.
I hug Tyler and he gets weird...no details...just WEIRD.
weird to the point of he showed up to my house around ten.
He's upset, and incredibly convinced that I'm what he wants. No sex, no alcohol or drugs influencing his words (trust me I know what it's like when he's under those influences) just him completely opening up. and get this, APOLOGIZING.
it was crazy.
so I'm still up because im working on my english project.
Tyler is texting me basically non stop about how he would rather face a coffin full of spiders than let go of me.
ya.
it's kinda to the point where he's stepping into uncharted waters here.
I like this new boy.
I dont want to hurt Ty, but man his timing bites.
He's so sad.
I'm doing all i can...but man I've never even seen Zach this freaking passionate.
It's almost ridiculous.
This is not making any sense because I'm not clear on details
there really is so much more to say.
things about how I had an energy drink and peach rings.
I'm in desperate need of a shower.
so it looks like sleep just aint gonna happen for me tonight (this morning?)
idk
well anyways.
today is Thursday...but it's really my friday.
which stresses me out to infinity because I neeeeed to finish that damn test.
(finished the project though arent you proud?)
woot.
well
I really hope this stuff works out.
uhm goodnightish.
Well I despise english this year, just to clarify.
mmm...today(or should I say yesterday seeings how it's 12:22 at the current moment?) has been so strange. Fabulous, terrifyingly weird, and just wow.
Yea, thats right freaking midnight and a half and I'm still alive and kickin.
Anyways
I had a really great day.
Found out some fabulous news.
talked to people I love very much.
was incredibly productive.
(and surprisingly awake)
well I went to Callie's Dinner and then to Zach's and Melissa picked us up and we went to Wal Mart to get energy drinks before heading to our final destination (Cascade's Grad) let me tell you it was a very beautiful graduation. STUNNING.
anywho. Sat next to Elliot, my savior for a day.
and Zach. (didnt see KG. Sad day)
had a really great time.
then awkwarrrrrrrrdness as awkward can be..I walk out and find myself standing between the dreaded ex's. thats right, Tyler and Zach within 2 feet of me and 4 feet of eachother. (and let me remind you that Mr. L was somewhere in the building as well.)
They didnt acknowledge each other but both made it pretty clear to me that I was standing in unpleasant boundaries.
So we walked to Elliots car.
Tyler in front with Anthony and the rest of them boys.
and ZAch behind with Elliot.
and me, you guessed it, smack dab in the middle.
ahhh
ok
so now its time to say goodbye to Ty and the other boys.
I hug Tyler and he gets weird...no details...just WEIRD.
weird to the point of he showed up to my house around ten.
He's upset, and incredibly convinced that I'm what he wants. No sex, no alcohol or drugs influencing his words (trust me I know what it's like when he's under those influences) just him completely opening up. and get this, APOLOGIZING.
it was crazy.
so I'm still up because im working on my english project.
Tyler is texting me basically non stop about how he would rather face a coffin full of spiders than let go of me.
ya.
it's kinda to the point where he's stepping into uncharted waters here.
I like this new boy.
I dont want to hurt Ty, but man his timing bites.
He's so sad.
I'm doing all i can...but man I've never even seen Zach this freaking passionate.
It's almost ridiculous.
This is not making any sense because I'm not clear on details
there really is so much more to say.
things about how I had an energy drink and peach rings.
I'm in desperate need of a shower.
so it looks like sleep just aint gonna happen for me tonight (this morning?)
idk
well anyways.
today is Thursday...but it's really my friday.
which stresses me out to infinity because I neeeeed to finish that damn test.
(finished the project though arent you proud?)
woot.
well
I really hope this stuff works out.
uhm goodnightish.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
he was struck with Polio
Today has been so weird.
and thats about all I have to say.
well sort of..
Hey Crystal, need a Fun Fact For The Fridge???
The inventor of the unicycle never learned to ride one.
yeaaah thats right.
Im done.
goodnightttttt and Sierra, I know you werent really holding it.
(imakestupidchoices)
and thats about all I have to say.
well sort of..
Hey Crystal, need a Fun Fact For The Fridge???
The inventor of the unicycle never learned to ride one.
yeaaah thats right.
Im done.
goodnightttttt and Sierra, I know you werent really holding it.
(imakestupidchoices)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Call The Press...oh wait, I am the press.
Im blogging!!!!
but dont hold your breath. Because I imagine that it will be many days until I blog again after this. Sad decade, I know, right?
Well today has been a fab day. and that is why I'm blogging.
Started out as (a word I rarely use) productive. Incredibly productive as a matter of fact. In Mocha Tuesdays. We actually discussed the book in depth, probably because it's one of the easiest books to talk about on the "what if" factor.
Mocha tuesdays=2x coffee =D
and then we took a test in math, which was fabbbulous because I thought I was gonna bomb, but I actually felt confident in my mathmatical abilities. strange.
then shutupJacob and I played cards and I basically kicked his butt.
Then ASB was also productive, I dont remember how... but it was.
and then I drew a flamingo and brainstormed for yearbook.
and then Alex said "You butter both sides of the bread."
it was comical.
Now we sit in yearbook.
so..
Coffee.
Monster.
Pizza.
Music.
Caitlyn Hoefer =D
Rocky.
pretty flower pictures.
annnd Backseat Goodbye.
is this all I really need for a good mood?
yes.
something new please.
like...
a new boy.
that'd be FAB x7
=DDD
but dont hold your breath. Because I imagine that it will be many days until I blog again after this. Sad decade, I know, right?
Well today has been a fab day. and that is why I'm blogging.
Started out as (a word I rarely use) productive. Incredibly productive as a matter of fact. In Mocha Tuesdays. We actually discussed the book in depth, probably because it's one of the easiest books to talk about on the "what if" factor.
Mocha tuesdays=2x coffee =D
and then we took a test in math, which was fabbbulous because I thought I was gonna bomb, but I actually felt confident in my mathmatical abilities. strange.
then shutupJacob and I played cards and I basically kicked his butt.
Then ASB was also productive, I dont remember how... but it was.
and then I drew a flamingo and brainstormed for yearbook.
and then Alex said "You butter both sides of the bread."
it was comical.
Now we sit in yearbook.
so..
Coffee.
Monster.
Pizza.
Music.
Caitlyn Hoefer =D
Rocky.
pretty flower pictures.
annnd Backseat Goodbye.
is this all I really need for a good mood?
yes.
something new please.
like...
a new boy.
that'd be FAB x7
=DDD
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Loosed out of Hell to speak of horrors--he comes before me
No.
Sierra. It's not. (fashionable to always be matching)
so it's ok that today my sarcasm does not match my shoes.
my shoes match my jacket, which matches my shirt, which also matches my eye shadow.
Really funny things have been happening. but apparently I dont have the ability to accomplish posting a blog which describes these hilarities.This is what Shakespeare does to me.
So, this weekend (started with Friday...I went home at noon...fell asleep and didnt get up until 3:35...when Tyler texted me and asked me if we were hanging out. I got ready in 5 minutes. Curled hair and make-up and everything. I think I posses superhuman powers. =D oh that's right..I was born with this thing called girl, and so I automatically win.
hmmm...more quotes along the lines of girls ruling the world are soon to come.
then Saturday I hung out with Eli, Triston, Tyler, and Jeri. we watched movies and were lazy all day. Then we went to Eli's Derby race. That's basically all for Saturday.
Sunday I had a tournament.
We got second. woot. I almost punched some girls in the face. ughhh.
My step-dad texted me during the tournament in the middle of one of my rage fests...and bout made me cry. =D
I love him.
Jeri was refusing to take a shower yesterday...so I told my mom to crack an egg in her hair...she laughed and said "I'll let you do that when you get home" and continued the laughing.
uhm I'm tired.
it's monday.
but its also tuesday and a half?
idkkk?
I'mma go.
(Seacrest?) outttttt.
Sierra. It's not. (fashionable to always be matching)
so it's ok that today my sarcasm does not match my shoes.
my shoes match my jacket, which matches my shirt, which also matches my eye shadow.
Really funny things have been happening. but apparently I dont have the ability to accomplish posting a blog which describes these hilarities.This is what Shakespeare does to me.
So, this weekend (started with Friday...I went home at noon...fell asleep and didnt get up until 3:35...when Tyler texted me and asked me if we were hanging out. I got ready in 5 minutes. Curled hair and make-up and everything. I think I posses superhuman powers. =D oh that's right..I was born with this thing called girl, and so I automatically win.
hmmm...more quotes along the lines of girls ruling the world are soon to come.
then Saturday I hung out with Eli, Triston, Tyler, and Jeri. we watched movies and were lazy all day. Then we went to Eli's Derby race. That's basically all for Saturday.
Sunday I had a tournament.
We got second. woot. I almost punched some girls in the face. ughhh.
My step-dad texted me during the tournament in the middle of one of my rage fests...and bout made me cry. =D
I love him.
Jeri was refusing to take a shower yesterday...so I told my mom to crack an egg in her hair...she laughed and said "I'll let you do that when you get home" and continued the laughing.
uhm I'm tired.
it's monday.
but its also tuesday and a half?
idkkk?
I'mma go.
(Seacrest?) outttttt.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
stuck on this disfunction
=D
Well today was crazy.
And so far it's only 1pm.
I'm going to protest something that already happened...
WHY THE HECK did we have a two hour delay?
there was NO snow on the ground or in the sky. thankyouverymuch.
Anywho.
I'm done complaining..cause it gave me a chance to put stuff up on myspace and such.
Well classes are 30 minutes long. except for 5th period (45)
so far today I have taken a competency, talked my mouth off in ASB, read a comic, watched She's The Man, and sat at the computer.
It's been eventful.
And interesting.
=D
I have a new favorite song!
correction...2 new favorite songs!
Who's Gonna Go-Automatic Loveletter.
Put your Records on-Corinne Bailey Rae.
ohhhhh yes.
=D
"Saphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams"
woooooooooo
makes me smile.
And apparently Molly is entertained by her own copy.
and Crystal..who I think I will bequeath(deem?)(I don know)Mama Crystal is only excited bout summer-(and the FOB concert)
=DDD
And Sierra, I miss you.
And Brandie Hartman is my heroooo.
=D
ohmuhgah.
I have a Jay Littrel story.
Guess who's dating a Hooters waitress?
oh wait, I already said!!!!!
Well today was crazy.
And so far it's only 1pm.
I'm going to protest something that already happened...
WHY THE HECK did we have a two hour delay?
there was NO snow on the ground or in the sky. thankyouverymuch.
Anywho.
I'm done complaining..cause it gave me a chance to put stuff up on myspace and such.
Well classes are 30 minutes long. except for 5th period (45)
so far today I have taken a competency, talked my mouth off in ASB, read a comic, watched She's The Man, and sat at the computer.
It's been eventful.
And interesting.
=D
I have a new favorite song!
correction...2 new favorite songs!
Who's Gonna Go-Automatic Loveletter.
Put your Records on-Corinne Bailey Rae.
ohhhhh yes.
=D
"Saphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams"
woooooooooo
makes me smile.
And apparently Molly is entertained by her own copy.
and Crystal..who I think I will bequeath(deem?)(I don know)Mama Crystal is only excited bout summer-(and the FOB concert)
=DDD
And Sierra, I miss you.
And Brandie Hartman is my heroooo.
=D
ohmuhgah.
I have a Jay Littrel story.
Guess who's dating a Hooters waitress?
oh wait, I already said!!!!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
That's what I get.
He...
He drives me up the wall
He has imperfections that make him perfect
He always has to be right
He knows it all, every dirty detail
He knows just what to say to ruin my day
He laughs at and with me at all the right times
He is often the source of my tears
He is a hero, my hero
He can’t make up his mind
He is comforting, and supportive
He won’t try to make it right
He loves me through my issues
He makes me want to scream
He is my (second) best friend.
but, only second to Sierra, and honestly...who can top her?
Anyways.
I have not updated this week.
and it's Wedbnesday which means that a whole butt load of crap has happened, and I have not yet spilled the beans.
Let's talk about the monumental change that is about to take place in my household.
TJ got a job. He leaves sunday for 3 months.
Mom's job starts the same day.
Dad, apparently also got a job.
So now I just need to get my hands on one.
That sentence just stressed me the heck out.
oh well.
When did I get so weak?
since when do I let guys walk all over me?
ohhh the answer?
since always.
"That's what you get when you let your heart win."
Thanks Crystal.
Ugh I dont even know where this blog is going.
wow.
Stressssssed.
That was so uncalled for.
I'm bout tuckered out.
He drives me up the wall
He has imperfections that make him perfect
He always has to be right
He knows it all, every dirty detail
He knows just what to say to ruin my day
He laughs at and with me at all the right times
He is often the source of my tears
He is a hero, my hero
He can’t make up his mind
He is comforting, and supportive
He won’t try to make it right
He loves me through my issues
He makes me want to scream
He is my (second) best friend.
but, only second to Sierra, and honestly...who can top her?
Anyways.
I have not updated this week.
and it's Wedbnesday which means that a whole butt load of crap has happened, and I have not yet spilled the beans.
Let's talk about the monumental change that is about to take place in my household.
TJ got a job. He leaves sunday for 3 months.
Mom's job starts the same day.
Dad, apparently also got a job.
So now I just need to get my hands on one.
That sentence just stressed me the heck out.
oh well.
When did I get so weak?
since when do I let guys walk all over me?
ohhh the answer?
since always.
"That's what you get when you let your heart win."
Thanks Crystal.
Ugh I dont even know where this blog is going.
wow.
Stressssssed.
That was so uncalled for.
I'm bout tuckered out.
Monday, February 23, 2009
I'm looking through you
today was the craziest most drama filled day that I have had in a very long time.
I dont even know how all of it happened. But the point is it did happen.
Do you guys enjoy how very vague I am? the day went like this:
I like a boy
I dont like the boy
I like the boy
The boy likes me
Zach interferes.
Friends interfere.
I like the boy.
Boy likes me
We're just gonna be friends.
People suck.
Haha but it's for the best.
Stay outta the way.
I dont care what he's done.
I do care about who he is.
I've been a mess and made bad choices...I have been forgiven graciously by those around me. and so I am going to fogrive him of whatever mistakes he's made. and I dont care to know what they are.
=D
Thank you and goodnight.
cept...again, it's the middle of the day.
I dont even know how all of it happened. But the point is it did happen.
Do you guys enjoy how very vague I am? the day went like this:
I like a boy
I dont like the boy
I like the boy
The boy likes me
Zach interferes.
Friends interfere.
I like the boy.
Boy likes me
We're just gonna be friends.
People suck.
Haha but it's for the best.
Stay outta the way.
I dont care what he's done.
I do care about who he is.
I've been a mess and made bad choices...I have been forgiven graciously by those around me. and so I am going to fogrive him of whatever mistakes he's made. and I dont care to know what they are.
=D
Thank you and goodnight.
cept...again, it's the middle of the day.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
about a boy! (big surprise there)
hahaha
=DDDD
I am laughing because of the title of this blog.
I actually think it's the funniest thing ever.
What the HECK? is it "let's all get to know Ema month" ?
what happened that suddenly I'm likeable?
or maybe not likeable...maybe I just look like an easy target?
I'm not really sure. but whatever it is, at the moment, I'm okay with it.
And I'll continue being okay with it until I'm the one getting hurt. (which will enevitably happen...soon.)
oh..I was dress shopping today. found a dress (didnt buy it though)Thank goodness...because about an hour later I found out that I might not (which means it's not gonna happen) go to Scio's prom. apparently Rocky's family is moving all the stuff into their bakery that weekend...so I cant steal him away for a couple hours? whateverrrrrrr Caitlyn and I decided it's BS.
anyways.
Yesterday I hung out with Rochelle-the Quizno's Goddess. lol
and I met a new boy. Chris. He's a JR AT...you guessed it...Cascade.
=DDDD
he's pretty great...more details when I have them.
Uhm Dyllan is pretty great too
And so is Rocky...despite the stupid prom craapppp
I'm stressed out cause of Mr. SHS
oh well.
haha
just got a text...Chris is at work.
think imma go see him.
=DDD
woooooo
Miss you all muchly!
=DDDD
I am laughing because of the title of this blog.
I actually think it's the funniest thing ever.
What the HECK? is it "let's all get to know Ema month" ?
what happened that suddenly I'm likeable?
or maybe not likeable...maybe I just look like an easy target?
I'm not really sure. but whatever it is, at the moment, I'm okay with it.
And I'll continue being okay with it until I'm the one getting hurt. (which will enevitably happen...soon.)
oh..I was dress shopping today. found a dress (didnt buy it though)Thank goodness...because about an hour later I found out that I might not (which means it's not gonna happen) go to Scio's prom. apparently Rocky's family is moving all the stuff into their bakery that weekend...so I cant steal him away for a couple hours? whateverrrrrrr Caitlyn and I decided it's BS.
anyways.
Yesterday I hung out with Rochelle-the Quizno's Goddess. lol
and I met a new boy. Chris. He's a JR AT...you guessed it...Cascade.
=DDDD
he's pretty great...more details when I have them.
Uhm Dyllan is pretty great too
And so is Rocky...despite the stupid prom craapppp
I'm stressed out cause of Mr. SHS
oh well.
haha
just got a text...Chris is at work.
think imma go see him.
=DDD
woooooo
Miss you all muchly!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Sierra
So I went into this bakery.
it's amazing.
and I have pictures that you MUST see.
=D
This is a post that I never got around to.
but I got around to it now.
=D
it's amazing.
and I have pictures that you MUST see.
=D
This is a post that I never got around to.
but I got around to it now.
=D
STOP!
okay so this was the weirdest, twistedest-is that a word?- weekend I've ever had. Ever. That's all there is to it.
Let's see...where to start.
okay.
I've got it (prepare yourselves, this is going to be a long blog, and knowing me...it probably wont all make sense and the words will confuse themselves.)
Friday-
Well the plane ride was fantastic. Being that close to the sunshine made me happy.
We got to the hotel, and I didnt have a room so I threw all my stuff in Britt's room and we headed to the mall. We took a bus. Buses make me happy. I dont know what it is, they are just so great. I really love city life and people watching. Well the mall was huge. (of course) I got to watch a lot of people and I decided that I want my next purchase to be a pair of peacock earings. Well we got back and I was exhausted.(we spent 6 hours walking around the mall...plus the bus rides there and back) My knee was KILLING me. So I got a hold of Molly (girl on my team) and took my suff to her room. I immediately passed out on her bed. Her mom then helped me get a key to my room and I passed out there.
Then I got Sierra's text about Bradley's injury. Is he okay?!?!?!?
and then my mom was texting me about how she had the funeral to go to the next day.
And then Jay texted me about how his uncle was going through PAS on Sunday.
I was homesick already. I felt like I wasnt where I was supposed to be. Not a good feeling. But I went to sleep and woke up in a much better mood the next morning.
Saturday- First day of the tournament. and funeral day. We played really well this day. I had a lot of fun with the gals and it was just good times. I got kinda grumpy though cause we lost twice..I dont like to lose. but it was two of only three losses of the whole weekend. I think this is the day that the 18-1 team pulled a prank on Ryan. This was a terrrrrrible idea.
they did awful things that I dont even want to repeat on the internet. So ask me about it and I will tell you.
let me just add that it was only the Central girls and Mona that did these unspeakable things. uggggggggh. YUCK!
okay so that was Saturday. ohhh and Rocky was my Valentine.
haha
oh and I am pretty sure that this was the elevator incident day as well.
let me first describe my mood this day.
You know how when I'm in like an amazingly perfect mood, and everything is good? Im like, bouncing off walls and pretending that I'm a strange animal or something along the lines of that? Well that was my mood on Saturday.
anywho..
I got onto an elevator by myself...and there were like 10 girls that I didnt know on the elevator too.
well the doors close...and one girl reaches over to touch another girl...the girl that is being "touched" lets out a loud "STOP!" and proceeds to say "dont touch me there, this is my private square." (while drawing a square around herself... then she begins to spell out the word rape, "R-A-P-E, get the F away from me!"
the door to the elevator opens and they all run off laughing...I'm left on the elevator pondering exactly what it was that I had just witnessed.
it was silly.
Sunday-We won all of our games this day...this is also Jay's uncle's PAS day. We walked in the rain to a pizza place this day. It was some amazing food let me tell you. I dont remember what else happened this day. It starts to get confised and jumbled.
Monday-so now we get to Monday. Wellll we won two of the three games we played this day. Then I found out some really sad news...
Ryan quit his coaching job. He's no longer coaching the 18-1's team.
I'm so maaaaaaaad at this point. Those girls pushed him over the edge. You shouldnt treat someone so disrespectfully. it's not acceptable.
So one of my favorite ppl in the world is sad. And not just sad. He is I'm-not-sleeping-im-so-depressed-its-not-even-funny kind of sad.
Sooo last night (this morning?) after the plane landed and we were getting out bags we hugged and sat there and talked, and cried. He put his arm around me and goes "They just dont make them like you anymore Em. You're a great kid, and I really hope I can come back and see you and Brittany finish this thing out." That word, the word FINISH... pushed my tears over the edge. I told him I loved him and that I appreciate everything he's done for me and everything that he's taught me. I really dont know where I would be if I hadnt had him around. He's been a huge part of my life and it upsets me that people dont respect him the way that they should.
Gaaaaaaaah it makes me so angry. and even now, sitting here typing this...and talking to my mom about it...it makes me sick to my stomach.
I have to go.
I hope you all had a great day today, and I love you all very much.
I gotta do some chores.
It's SO good to be home.
Let's see...where to start.
okay.
I've got it (prepare yourselves, this is going to be a long blog, and knowing me...it probably wont all make sense and the words will confuse themselves.)
Friday-
Well the plane ride was fantastic. Being that close to the sunshine made me happy.
We got to the hotel, and I didnt have a room so I threw all my stuff in Britt's room and we headed to the mall. We took a bus. Buses make me happy. I dont know what it is, they are just so great. I really love city life and people watching. Well the mall was huge. (of course) I got to watch a lot of people and I decided that I want my next purchase to be a pair of peacock earings. Well we got back and I was exhausted.(we spent 6 hours walking around the mall...plus the bus rides there and back) My knee was KILLING me. So I got a hold of Molly (girl on my team) and took my suff to her room. I immediately passed out on her bed. Her mom then helped me get a key to my room and I passed out there.
Then I got Sierra's text about Bradley's injury. Is he okay?!?!?!?
and then my mom was texting me about how she had the funeral to go to the next day.
And then Jay texted me about how his uncle was going through PAS on Sunday.
I was homesick already. I felt like I wasnt where I was supposed to be. Not a good feeling. But I went to sleep and woke up in a much better mood the next morning.
Saturday- First day of the tournament. and funeral day. We played really well this day. I had a lot of fun with the gals and it was just good times. I got kinda grumpy though cause we lost twice..I dont like to lose. but it was two of only three losses of the whole weekend. I think this is the day that the 18-1 team pulled a prank on Ryan. This was a terrrrrrible idea.
they did awful things that I dont even want to repeat on the internet. So ask me about it and I will tell you.
let me just add that it was only the Central girls and Mona that did these unspeakable things. uggggggggh. YUCK!
okay so that was Saturday. ohhh and Rocky was my Valentine.
haha
oh and I am pretty sure that this was the elevator incident day as well.
let me first describe my mood this day.
You know how when I'm in like an amazingly perfect mood, and everything is good? Im like, bouncing off walls and pretending that I'm a strange animal or something along the lines of that? Well that was my mood on Saturday.
anywho..
I got onto an elevator by myself...and there were like 10 girls that I didnt know on the elevator too.
well the doors close...and one girl reaches over to touch another girl...the girl that is being "touched" lets out a loud "STOP!" and proceeds to say "dont touch me there, this is my private square." (while drawing a square around herself... then she begins to spell out the word rape, "R-A-P-E, get the F away from me!"
the door to the elevator opens and they all run off laughing...I'm left on the elevator pondering exactly what it was that I had just witnessed.
it was silly.
Sunday-We won all of our games this day...this is also Jay's uncle's PAS day. We walked in the rain to a pizza place this day. It was some amazing food let me tell you. I dont remember what else happened this day. It starts to get confised and jumbled.
Monday-so now we get to Monday. Wellll we won two of the three games we played this day. Then I found out some really sad news...
Ryan quit his coaching job. He's no longer coaching the 18-1's team.
I'm so maaaaaaaad at this point. Those girls pushed him over the edge. You shouldnt treat someone so disrespectfully. it's not acceptable.
So one of my favorite ppl in the world is sad. And not just sad. He is I'm-not-sleeping-im-so-depressed-its-not-even-funny kind of sad.
Sooo last night (this morning?) after the plane landed and we were getting out bags we hugged and sat there and talked, and cried. He put his arm around me and goes "They just dont make them like you anymore Em. You're a great kid, and I really hope I can come back and see you and Brittany finish this thing out." That word, the word FINISH... pushed my tears over the edge. I told him I loved him and that I appreciate everything he's done for me and everything that he's taught me. I really dont know where I would be if I hadnt had him around. He's been a huge part of my life and it upsets me that people dont respect him the way that they should.
Gaaaaaaaah it makes me so angry. and even now, sitting here typing this...and talking to my mom about it...it makes me sick to my stomach.
I have to go.
I hope you all had a great day today, and I love you all very much.
I gotta do some chores.
It's SO good to be home.
Friday, February 13, 2009
whoot
Leaving for Cali at seven forty-five!!!!
plane leaves at eleven.
=DDD
hope you have a good day today loves.
aaaaaaah it's "vacation time"
oh and apparently I'm a toy and a fool,
but not the Feste kinda fool.
The kind that is, in truth, dumb.
More on that note later.
I'll figure things out over this weekend.
ugh I hate being played with.
plane leaves at eleven.
=DDD
hope you have a good day today loves.
aaaaaaah it's "vacation time"
oh and apparently I'm a toy and a fool,
but not the Feste kinda fool.
The kind that is, in truth, dumb.
More on that note later.
I'll figure things out over this weekend.
ugh I hate being played with.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
and I think to myself
lol
What a wonderful world.
Crystal I loved the book.
I want to marry a boy like Noah, or Paul...minus the Gay thing.
okay so I was walking with Jeri Jane to the store tonight and on the way back a bird shrieked and flew off.
Jeri flipped and was like "oh muh gah, was that a opossum?"
I laughed SO hard.
it was hilarious.
and I decided it had to be blogged.
know what else has to be blogged?
I'm leaving for Cali tomorrow!
flying on an airplane!
ohh and btw I just found out that a plane crashed in new york tonight.
44 ppl died.
=(
well anyways, I just wanted to make sure that if I DO happen to die this weekend...you all know that I love you.
remember me and smile!
=DDD
I really am ready to go, so please dont be sad if I do.
and now on a less morbid note (I'm not going to die so calm yourselves.)
I am going to bed.
my back hurts
and even though I'm not going to school I'm still getting everyone up in the morning.
ohhh
TJ told me he loved me today.
it almost made me cry.
and he said thank you.
idk.
just a really cool experience.
I love him.
and he really does know everything.
Like, what to say and when to say it.
=DD
well I did a survey, and copied and pasted it...mmmmbut It pasted weirdly...
Do you swear to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth?I always tell the truth...unless I'm lying.Where were you last night?I was at home.staring at my amazing poster.and freaking cause I got my hair cutWhat is today's date?february 12Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?uhm, honestly I'm not sure.When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?not very oftenAnyone crushing on you?yes sir.What is your relationship status?I am singleHas anyone ever sang to you?yeshhHas anyone ever given you roses?yeaaaaIf you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?I woulddddHow do you make your money?jobsssWhat is your favorite color?turquoise.What color are your eyes?brownishWhat is a compliment you receive often?uhm lately it's been "you're amazing"Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?Zachery about 5 minutes agoDo you like your parents?I love my parents, I like them most of the time.Do you secretly like someone?:uhmmm I'm not so sure.Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?Zachery. but he's just my bestie.Where is the furthest place you've traveled?the bahamasWhich do you prefer, to eat or sleep?I would rather sleep than eat.=DDo you look more like your mom or your dad?Dad, for sure.hands down.it's almost scary.How long does it take you to shower?I dont time myself.Do you hate your bf/gf's ex?I dont have one of those.Are you flexible?yeaWhat did you do on New Years Eve?I was with with my fam, and Jay and some of his fam.but at different times.good day.Are you a bitch?N/A hahahaha lol okay so...I took this survey from Zach, and he put that.I just have to say that I disagree.this question does apply to you sweetie.lol I am laughing SO hard right now.oh muh goshDo you bite your nails?uhm no.I think that is yuckyWhat is the last letter of your middle name?E-it's also the first letter of my first name.How many hours of sleep did you get last night?uhhhm I'm not sure.Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?:yesAre you scared of flying?nope.not in the least.I'm pretty stoked for this flight.What do you sleep in?shirts and shorts.sometimes sweatshirts.Do you like funny people or serious people?I like funny people most of the time.make me laugh and I'll love you always.What are you listening to?the keyboardand the sound of the music in my headWhat do you have planned for tonight?sleeeeeping.Do you prefer myspace or socialsplash?myspaceDo you have a favorite item of clothing?I do for sure.Do you like messages or comments better?I dont care really.just talk to me =DLast movie you saw in theaters?uhmm Paul Blart.lol lolLast thing you ate?a cookie?What was last thing you drank?milkkkkkAre you happy right now?I am so happy.If you could have one thing right now what would it be?oh man.let's not go there.Who makes you happiest right now?a loooooooooot of stuff!What were you doing at midnight last night?I was asleep and dreaming.Are you left handed?nopeeeeeeeWhat is the last thing you thought about?uhhhhhhhm my shoulder hurtsWhen is your birthday?APRIL 20thDo you want to get married & have children one day?yes I doWhat's your name?Emalynn Marie SwaimDid you ever have braces?nopeDid you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?yes I think so...maybeWho are you going to marry?I really don knowWhy did you last cry?I was just thinkin bout lotsa stuff.Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with J?yepAny plans for tomorrow?yes! Big BIG plansDo you find the opposite sex confusing?not really.most of them are pretty straight forward.How has this week been?it has been SO fantastic.Do you have a best friend?Yes I do.Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you talk to 24/7?well, not ALL the time.but most of the time.What are you excited about?Tomorrrrrow!!!!!!!!!!Is your current hair color your natural hair color?YesssssHas anyone told you they would never leave and left?yes they have.If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now,do you think they would be mad?I dont knowWhat was the first thing you said when you woke up today?"get up Jer." that is always the first thing I say.lolor "good morninggggg sunshine!"or something to that effect. Do you love anyone?yessssss =DI love lotsa ppllove makes the world go round.Did you enjoy your weekend?oh yeeeeeessHow do you treat someone when you are angry with them?I donttttttt.Who's the last girl you talked to?my mother.What makes you happy?being silllllly...and making others happy.Where was your first kiss with the last person you kissed?oh dear.lolWhat brand of shampoo is in your shower right now?lotsa different brands.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?yupDid you have a good day yesterday?ohhhh yesDo you think you'll be married in 10 years?it's a possibilityWould you rather have big or small dogs?Big ones!!!!!!Biggest annoyance in your life right now?uhm I dont want to talk about it.it's not really worth my time.and that's why it's annoying.Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?nope.Did you go out or stay in last night?I stayed innnnnnnbut the party came to me.
What a wonderful world.
Crystal I loved the book.
I want to marry a boy like Noah, or Paul...minus the Gay thing.
okay so I was walking with Jeri Jane to the store tonight and on the way back a bird shrieked and flew off.
Jeri flipped and was like "oh muh gah, was that a opossum?"
I laughed SO hard.
it was hilarious.
and I decided it had to be blogged.
know what else has to be blogged?
I'm leaving for Cali tomorrow!
flying on an airplane!
ohh and btw I just found out that a plane crashed in new york tonight.
44 ppl died.
=(
well anyways, I just wanted to make sure that if I DO happen to die this weekend...you all know that I love you.
remember me and smile!
=DDD
I really am ready to go, so please dont be sad if I do.
and now on a less morbid note (I'm not going to die so calm yourselves.)
I am going to bed.
my back hurts
and even though I'm not going to school I'm still getting everyone up in the morning.
ohhh
TJ told me he loved me today.
it almost made me cry.
and he said thank you.
idk.
just a really cool experience.
I love him.
and he really does know everything.
Like, what to say and when to say it.
=DD
well I did a survey, and copied and pasted it...mmmmbut It pasted weirdly...
Do you swear to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth?I always tell the truth...unless I'm lying.Where were you last night?I was at home.staring at my amazing poster.and freaking cause I got my hair cutWhat is today's date?february 12Who was the last person to call you baby/babe?uhm, honestly I'm not sure.When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?not very oftenAnyone crushing on you?yes sir.What is your relationship status?I am singleHas anyone ever sang to you?yeshhHas anyone ever given you roses?yeaaaaIf you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?I woulddddHow do you make your money?jobsssWhat is your favorite color?turquoise.What color are your eyes?brownishWhat is a compliment you receive often?uhm lately it's been "you're amazing"Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?Zachery about 5 minutes agoDo you like your parents?I love my parents, I like them most of the time.Do you secretly like someone?:uhmmm I'm not so sure.Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?Zachery. but he's just my bestie.Where is the furthest place you've traveled?the bahamasWhich do you prefer, to eat or sleep?I would rather sleep than eat.=DDo you look more like your mom or your dad?Dad, for sure.hands down.it's almost scary.How long does it take you to shower?I dont time myself.Do you hate your bf/gf's ex?I dont have one of those.Are you flexible?yeaWhat did you do on New Years Eve?I was with with my fam, and Jay and some of his fam.but at different times.good day.Are you a bitch?N/A hahahaha lol okay so...I took this survey from Zach, and he put that.I just have to say that I disagree.this question does apply to you sweetie.lol I am laughing SO hard right now.oh muh goshDo you bite your nails?uhm no.I think that is yuckyWhat is the last letter of your middle name?E-it's also the first letter of my first name.How many hours of sleep did you get last night?uhhhm I'm not sure.Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?:yesAre you scared of flying?nope.not in the least.I'm pretty stoked for this flight.What do you sleep in?shirts and shorts.sometimes sweatshirts.Do you like funny people or serious people?I like funny people most of the time.make me laugh and I'll love you always.What are you listening to?the keyboardand the sound of the music in my headWhat do you have planned for tonight?sleeeeeping.Do you prefer myspace or socialsplash?myspaceDo you have a favorite item of clothing?I do for sure.Do you like messages or comments better?I dont care really.just talk to me =DLast movie you saw in theaters?uhmm Paul Blart.lol lolLast thing you ate?a cookie?What was last thing you drank?milkkkkkAre you happy right now?I am so happy.If you could have one thing right now what would it be?oh man.let's not go there.Who makes you happiest right now?a loooooooooot of stuff!What were you doing at midnight last night?I was asleep and dreaming.Are you left handed?nopeeeeeeeWhat is the last thing you thought about?uhhhhhhhm my shoulder hurtsWhen is your birthday?APRIL 20thDo you want to get married & have children one day?yes I doWhat's your name?Emalynn Marie SwaimDid you ever have braces?nopeDid you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?yes I think so...maybeWho are you going to marry?I really don knowWhy did you last cry?I was just thinkin bout lotsa stuff.Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with J?yepAny plans for tomorrow?yes! Big BIG plansDo you find the opposite sex confusing?not really.most of them are pretty straight forward.How has this week been?it has been SO fantastic.Do you have a best friend?Yes I do.Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you talk to 24/7?well, not ALL the time.but most of the time.What are you excited about?Tomorrrrrow!!!!!!!!!!Is your current hair color your natural hair color?YesssssHas anyone told you they would never leave and left?yes they have.If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now,do you think they would be mad?I dont knowWhat was the first thing you said when you woke up today?"get up Jer." that is always the first thing I say.lolor "good morninggggg sunshine!"or something to that effect. Do you love anyone?yessssss =DI love lotsa ppllove makes the world go round.Did you enjoy your weekend?oh yeeeeeessHow do you treat someone when you are angry with them?I donttttttt.Who's the last girl you talked to?my mother.What makes you happy?being silllllly...and making others happy.Where was your first kiss with the last person you kissed?oh dear.lolWhat brand of shampoo is in your shower right now?lotsa different brands.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?yupDid you have a good day yesterday?ohhhh yesDo you think you'll be married in 10 years?it's a possibilityWould you rather have big or small dogs?Big ones!!!!!!Biggest annoyance in your life right now?uhm I dont want to talk about it.it's not really worth my time.and that's why it's annoying.Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?nope.Did you go out or stay in last night?I stayed innnnnnnbut the party came to me.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
more pics
More pictures of me not so shocked.
and my beautiful poster, I woke up to that this morning.
can I just say it's probably oneof the coolest things I've ever seen in my life.
Kody's a pretty dang good artist.
(there is a flamingo on there!)
I did it..Well banana did it...
while I watched in silent awe.
I cant believe I did it....
WOW, right?(bad picturrrrrre)
ohhh and btw thats my poster!!!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Dilemma
that word has my name ALL over it.
(=
okay so here is a picture.
I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow possibly.
and I have a big huge dilemma, should I get my bangs cut like hers???? I think I want to, but I have two issues, what if it looks TERRIBLE? and I dont like change.
so, Crystal my dear, this one is aimed in your direction for the most part.
What do I do???????
Monday, February 9, 2009
what I wanna make.
.....
insanity, is highly under rated.
Boys, highly over rated!
BUT!!!! You cant have insanity without boys...does that make it worth it??!
Copy.
............
mine is pretty cool....
cooler than yours :)
I joke....its just the topic that is cooler lol
yup......
you are getting lunch so i thought I would give you a message to read cause I dont want to sit and try to figure out what to do about the change of coaches in the middle of the season for soccer......................
gah!
too many changes lol good thing I wasnt in soccer cause that would have been a change that would make me grumpy!
And good thing I wasnt in soccer cause I dont have time!
This is one big tangent!
those can be fun though! pretty much :)
I dont want you to walk in the classroom and see me blogging for you cause that would be rather lameish....
so i will stop now :)
I commented!!!
are you actually gonna write anything?
(so that was Sierra's version of attacking my blog.)
it's time to go.
again, I'll talk at this blog later,
ugggggggggh
lol
I'm exasperated.
insanity, is highly under rated.
Boys, highly over rated!
BUT!!!! You cant have insanity without boys...does that make it worth it??!
Copy.
............
mine is pretty cool....
cooler than yours :)
I joke....its just the topic that is cooler lol
yup......
you are getting lunch so i thought I would give you a message to read cause I dont want to sit and try to figure out what to do about the change of coaches in the middle of the season for soccer......................
gah!
too many changes lol good thing I wasnt in soccer cause that would have been a change that would make me grumpy!
And good thing I wasnt in soccer cause I dont have time!
This is one big tangent!
those can be fun though! pretty much :)
I dont want you to walk in the classroom and see me blogging for you cause that would be rather lameish....
so i will stop now :)
I commented!!!
are you actually gonna write anything?
(so that was Sierra's version of attacking my blog.)
it's time to go.
again, I'll talk at this blog later,
ugggggggggh
lol
I'm exasperated.
He loves her definitly, maybe
So again I go back to my rant about how terrible boys are.
But first let me say that today I have had Tea, Coffee, and I'm on my way to dominating this coca-cola.
So I'm sorry if I ramble and make no sense.
So Rocky told Kayla that he likes me. You would think this would make me happy, ah my dear friend, think again. He only told her after she told him that she still is going to try to "fix things" with Jon. (a boy from Salem)
well anyways. I'm sick of feeling second best to this chick, and she obviously needs to get her priorities straight. And so does Rocky. Gah, and I talked to Caitlyn about Kayla, apparently this is not the girls first offense. makes me wanna punch her in the face, however I am not going to because I'm not a violent person.
Zach sat with me at church. (Church was amazing. The pastor and I had a conversation in the middle of it all, and my mom afterwords was like "how do you do that? People were staring, and listening to what you were saying." It was pretty great. I love Zach, btw, but I'm not in love with him. And if this dang girl hurts him I will give her a big serving of beat down.
Jay came over Sunday afternoon. Nuff said.
Blaine is driving me up the G-D wall.
Saturday was great. I love volleyball.
ok. I'm done.
I will probably post another blog that is on the happy side.
=D
But first let me say that today I have had Tea, Coffee, and I'm on my way to dominating this coca-cola.
So I'm sorry if I ramble and make no sense.
So Rocky told Kayla that he likes me. You would think this would make me happy, ah my dear friend, think again. He only told her after she told him that she still is going to try to "fix things" with Jon. (a boy from Salem)
well anyways. I'm sick of feeling second best to this chick, and she obviously needs to get her priorities straight. And so does Rocky. Gah, and I talked to Caitlyn about Kayla, apparently this is not the girls first offense. makes me wanna punch her in the face, however I am not going to because I'm not a violent person.
Zach sat with me at church. (Church was amazing. The pastor and I had a conversation in the middle of it all, and my mom afterwords was like "how do you do that? People were staring, and listening to what you were saying." It was pretty great. I love Zach, btw, but I'm not in love with him. And if this dang girl hurts him I will give her a big serving of beat down.
Jay came over Sunday afternoon. Nuff said.
Blaine is driving me up the G-D wall.
Saturday was great. I love volleyball.
ok. I'm done.
I will probably post another blog that is on the happy side.
=D
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Foxy Man-child
Yeah, leave it to Gilmoure.
Sick and Twisted.
I want this boy to want me.
I am not okay with the "2nd best" label.
I'm not okay with him telling me all these sweet things...ok so truthfully I'm very okay with it.
which is silly, and ignorant of me. My reasoning is that I want to enjoy the little time I have left to be niave.
The sky is pink this morning.
Sierra remind me I have news to tell you involving a boy and such.
haha
I have a new most favorite band of the moment.
FM Static. Lovelovelove
Oh my gosh so yesterday I was scared out of my mind because my step dad told me that I might not get to play volleyball anymore for this season because of my stupid knee. Which is killlllllling me by the way.
But then we looked at it and talked and such. Everything is all sorted out. I still get to play, but I’m changing positions, which bites, but at least Im on the court.
=D
Okay, well it’s school time.
Really hope you guys are all there today.
I miss you
oh and I really dont like school time by the way.
Sick and Twisted.
I want this boy to want me.
I am not okay with the "2nd best" label.
I'm not okay with him telling me all these sweet things...ok so truthfully I'm very okay with it.
which is silly, and ignorant of me. My reasoning is that I want to enjoy the little time I have left to be niave.
The sky is pink this morning.
Sierra remind me I have news to tell you involving a boy and such.
haha
I have a new most favorite band of the moment.
FM Static. Lovelovelove
Oh my gosh so yesterday I was scared out of my mind because my step dad told me that I might not get to play volleyball anymore for this season because of my stupid knee. Which is killlllllling me by the way.
But then we looked at it and talked and such. Everything is all sorted out. I still get to play, but I’m changing positions, which bites, but at least Im on the court.
=D
Okay, well it’s school time.
Really hope you guys are all there today.
I miss you
oh and I really dont like school time by the way.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Barbie and Ken
So I don’t know what the heck is wrong with my computer, but apparently it’s not going to let me type while I’m on the internet. So now I’m on Microsoft Works, which totally defeats the purpose if you ask me, but whatever.
I’ve discovered that I really like it when boys make me smile. Uhm…my new “friend” Rocky (AKA Ken) has definitely found a way into my heart. This might have something to do with it:
“Well if we were hanging out right now I would take you outside and explain to you how amazing you are for each individual star in the sky!”
As of now, I’m not getting my hopes up, our “relationship” is strictly….well it’s strictly relaxed at the moment. No complications or anything. Hahah we’ll see how long that lasts, apparently there’s such thing as Karma, and my step dad is waiting for it to bite me in the butt. Yeah, okay, well I think I’ve had my fair share of butt biting to last me a few more years. So Karma, if you’re reading this, please cut me a break…I really like this kid, and I’m so sick of getting hurt.
-Barbie.
Oh yeah, isn’t that the cutest thing?
Almost makes you wanna barf, doesn’t it?
I’ve discovered that I really like it when boys make me smile. Uhm…my new “friend” Rocky (AKA Ken) has definitely found a way into my heart. This might have something to do with it:
“Well if we were hanging out right now I would take you outside and explain to you how amazing you are for each individual star in the sky!”
As of now, I’m not getting my hopes up, our “relationship” is strictly….well it’s strictly relaxed at the moment. No complications or anything. Hahah we’ll see how long that lasts, apparently there’s such thing as Karma, and my step dad is waiting for it to bite me in the butt. Yeah, okay, well I think I’ve had my fair share of butt biting to last me a few more years. So Karma, if you’re reading this, please cut me a break…I really like this kid, and I’m so sick of getting hurt.
-Barbie.
Oh yeah, isn’t that the cutest thing?
Almost makes you wanna barf, doesn’t it?
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Noticing
ha SO I started this blog.
and I have no idea what I was goin to write about.
Jeri moves in today.
I have a new friend.
his name is Rocky.
Zach is really good at making my heart hurt.
I'm not feeling cloudy anymore.
my keyboard is being really stupid.
I am so grumpy.
uhhhhh
I know what I want.
and I have no idea what I was goin to write about.
Jeri moves in today.
I have a new friend.
his name is Rocky.
Zach is really good at making my heart hurt.
I'm not feeling cloudy anymore.
my keyboard is being really stupid.
I am so grumpy.
uhhhhh
I know what I want.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
All Used Up
Thursday night I had practice. I had a very grand conversation with my coach and it was fantastic. Grand and fantastic in one sentence.
Friday I went to a movie with Jay...we went to see Mall Cop...funny-and not as predictable as I might have guessed.
I also went to the Cascade/La Salle girls basketball game AND I went bowling...and stayed out until 2:30 in the morning...yes I was delirious beyond belief. It consisted of:
Then Saturday night I hung out around the house and felt good cause my room was clean. I'm pretty sure this day I went to a magic show with Bradley.
Sunday I went to church (Jay came) It was good.
then Sunday afternoon I hung out with Kody and Zachery. I hung up all of Kodes posters, and he and I named shadows and talked about life. He chills me out...he's like my own personal brand of heroine..only in a friendship sort of way. He literally controls my mood just like Jasper. (in case you havent noticed, that was 2...count them, 2, Twilight references) He is now drawing me two posters that will be killlller.
Melissa drove us all to Mcdonalds and bought ice cream...Sawyer showed up and that was funny.
Monday I woke up with a migrain, and so I stayed home all day. Kode, Melissa, and Zach all came to my house and we sat in Melissa's car and ate sour patch kids, reeces pieces, reeces peanut butter cups, and nerds. They chilled me out cause I was stressing about my current issues with life.
ie-The TWIN girls...that will end up at my house on a constant basis.
-Jeri...yeah..let's just leave it at that.
-my step dad making me feel useless
-and fighting with my mother about meaningless things.
This morning I also woke up with a headache.
Ugh
yucky.
welllllllll Imma go. I'm doneeeeeee.
oh new favorite song... "Losing sleep"
AMAZING.
I love you.
=D
Friday I went to a movie with Jay...we went to see Mall Cop...funny-and not as predictable as I might have guessed.
I also went to the Cascade/La Salle girls basketball game AND I went bowling...and stayed out until 2:30 in the morning...yes I was delirious beyond belief. It consisted of:
- Sitting in a car with Melissa and Kode and Zach (after having consumed a mountain dew...or as Gilmoure has pointed out...Mtn Dew.)
- Driving to the mall where I saw a mentally challenged puppy dog-tongue out and eyes crossed.
- We sat in the mall parking lot and I danced around and sang loudly, and had a conversation with Anthony. Ah it was good to see that boy.
- Then we went to Shopko..they kicked us out because they were "closed" so we went to Winco...and got energy drinks. (Cause I totttttally needed one of those...hahaaaa NOT) I was seriously outta my mind. They put up a sign and everything.... "Ema has temporarily lost her mind, check back tomorrow afternoon."
- Then we went bowling. Oh yessss Bowling. I broke a thumbnail. It was fun, my name on the screen was "Free Spirit" ahh I love my nickname.
Saturday I destroyed, and then un-destroyed my room. It is now EMAculate. (Immaculate-only Ema version)
Then Saturday night I hung out around the house and felt good cause my room was clean. I'm pretty sure this day I went to a magic show with Bradley.
Sunday I went to church (Jay came) It was good.
then Sunday afternoon I hung out with Kody and Zachery. I hung up all of Kodes posters, and he and I named shadows and talked about life. He chills me out...he's like my own personal brand of heroine..only in a friendship sort of way. He literally controls my mood just like Jasper. (in case you havent noticed, that was 2...count them, 2, Twilight references) He is now drawing me two posters that will be killlller.
Melissa drove us all to Mcdonalds and bought ice cream...Sawyer showed up and that was funny.
Monday I woke up with a migrain, and so I stayed home all day. Kode, Melissa, and Zach all came to my house and we sat in Melissa's car and ate sour patch kids, reeces pieces, reeces peanut butter cups, and nerds. They chilled me out cause I was stressing about my current issues with life.
ie-The TWIN girls...that will end up at my house on a constant basis.
-Jeri...yeah..let's just leave it at that.
-my step dad making me feel useless
-and fighting with my mother about meaningless things.
This morning I also woke up with a headache.
Ugh
yucky.
welllllllll Imma go. I'm doneeeeeee.
oh new favorite song... "Losing sleep"
AMAZING.
I love you.
=D
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
He was really worried about his shoe apparently
Uhm I took pictures of myself yesterday...and tried to write good picture captions.
it didnt quite work out...
so now I'm going to go get quotes and put them on here...and later I will steal them from myself..and put them on Myspace.
The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before.
You're nothing short of my everything.
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal."
"Kiss me and you will see stars; love me and I will give them to you."
"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
Oooh I'm a dancer, and I move to the rhythm of the music Oh it carries me away. Yes, I'm a dancer I was born to live this life I did not choose it And when the song begins to play Oh please, please will you dance with me?
Oh I'm a dreamer, well my head is in the clouds i keep believin' they really do come true
Life is like riding a bicycle. You don't fall off unless you plan to stop peddling.--
I saw a young boy eating an ice cream cone, ... I smashed it in his face. You know that kid is going to remember me when he's 50.
Wouldn't it be awesome just to come home and know that somewhere in your place there's a monkey you're gonna battle?
it didnt quite work out...
so now I'm going to go get quotes and put them on here...and later I will steal them from myself..and put them on Myspace.
The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before.
You're nothing short of my everything.
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal."
"Kiss me and you will see stars; love me and I will give them to you."
"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
Oooh I'm a dancer, and I move to the rhythm of the music Oh it carries me away. Yes, I'm a dancer I was born to live this life I did not choose it And when the song begins to play Oh please, please will you dance with me?
Oh I'm a dreamer, well my head is in the clouds i keep believin' they really do come true
Life is like riding a bicycle. You don't fall off unless you plan to stop peddling.--
I saw a young boy eating an ice cream cone, ... I smashed it in his face. You know that kid is going to remember me when he's 50.
Wouldn't it be awesome just to come home and know that somewhere in your place there's a monkey you're gonna battle?
ohhhhhh funny times.
Finals are over, and yet I still feel a little incomplete.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Through the calm, and through the storm.
"You and this Creation are incredible, whether you understand that or not. You are wonderful beyond imagination. Just because you make horrendous and destructive choices does not mean you deserve less respect for what you inherently are - the pinnacle of my Creation and the center of my affection."
Can you just FEEL God saying that to you?
I can.
uhm on a more cynical note...
"Eagles may soar, but cougars dont get sucked into jet engines"
and now before you say I'm TOTALLY committing blasphemy...
"Eagles may get sucked into jet engines, but cougars sure make nice rugs...or coats."
Now back to me and God...
"Honey, there's no easy answer that will take your pain away. Believe me, if I had one, I'd use it now. I have no magic wand to wave over you and make it all better. Life takes a bit of time and a lot of relationship."
it's so good to know that God doesnt want us to hurt, and this encourages me because I know he wants me to let go of my grief.
"Don't forget that in the midst of all your pain and heartache, you are surrounded by beauty, the wonder of Creation, art, your music and culture, the sounds of laughter and love, of whispered hopes and celebrations, of new life and transformation, of reconciliation and forgiveness. These are the results of your choices, and every choice matters, even the hidden ones."
This quote makes me look at the world differently. Ahhh to be constantly surrounded by beauty and love. Why be depressed? Why let it control me?
(God is bigger than the boogy man)
"Evil is a word we use to describe the absence of Good, just as we use darkness to describe the absence of Light or death to describe the absence of Life. Both evil and darkness can only be understood in relation to Light and Good; they do not have an actual existence. I am Light and I am Good. I am Love and there is no darkness in me. Light and Good actually exist. So, removing yourself from me will plunge you into darkness. Declaring independence from me will result in evil because apart from me, you can only draw upon yourself . That is death because you have separated yourself form me: Life."
*Reminder* I love My God. Which translates into: I need Him.
“‘Does that mean’, asked Mack, ‘that all roads will lead to you?’ ‘Not at all’, smiled Jesus as he reached for the door handle to the shop. ‘Most roads don’t lead anywhere. What it does mean is that I will travel any road to find you.’”
Can you just FEEL God saying that to you?
I can.
uhm on a more cynical note...
"Eagles may soar, but cougars dont get sucked into jet engines"
and now before you say I'm TOTALLY committing blasphemy...
"Eagles may get sucked into jet engines, but cougars sure make nice rugs...or coats."
Now back to me and God...
"Honey, there's no easy answer that will take your pain away. Believe me, if I had one, I'd use it now. I have no magic wand to wave over you and make it all better. Life takes a bit of time and a lot of relationship."
it's so good to know that God doesnt want us to hurt, and this encourages me because I know he wants me to let go of my grief.
"Don't forget that in the midst of all your pain and heartache, you are surrounded by beauty, the wonder of Creation, art, your music and culture, the sounds of laughter and love, of whispered hopes and celebrations, of new life and transformation, of reconciliation and forgiveness. These are the results of your choices, and every choice matters, even the hidden ones."
This quote makes me look at the world differently. Ahhh to be constantly surrounded by beauty and love. Why be depressed? Why let it control me?
(God is bigger than the boogy man)
"Evil is a word we use to describe the absence of Good, just as we use darkness to describe the absence of Light or death to describe the absence of Life. Both evil and darkness can only be understood in relation to Light and Good; they do not have an actual existence. I am Light and I am Good. I am Love and there is no darkness in me. Light and Good actually exist. So, removing yourself from me will plunge you into darkness. Declaring independence from me will result in evil because apart from me, you can only draw upon yourself . That is death because you have separated yourself form me: Life."
*Reminder* I love My God. Which translates into: I need Him.
“‘Does that mean’, asked Mack, ‘that all roads will lead to you?’ ‘Not at all’, smiled Jesus as he reached for the door handle to the shop. ‘Most roads don’t lead anywhere. What it does mean is that I will travel any road to find you.’”
- "And even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Your perfect love is casting out fear And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this lifeI won’t turn backI know You are near." -Matt Redman
- and i will fear no evil for my God is with me and if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear?
- "I’ll praise You in this stormAnd I will lift my handsFor You are who You areNo matter where I am Every tear I’ve cried You hold in Your hand You never left my side And though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm"
- Your grace has found me just as I am Empty handed, but alive in your hands
It's a good day. I have practice tonight =D and then tomorrow...and the next day.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Coincidence
Okay
So here is a pretty freaking hilarious story if I do say so myself.
Last night Jay took two of his old girl friends (not girls he dated, just his friends) out to dinner and a movie.
Wellllll He took them to McGrath’s Fish house…which is where my Cousin, SHAW, works. She was there. (and we were babysitting Killian) Well apparently Jay went to the bathroom, and the two girls (Jessica, and Priscilla) told the Waiter that it was Jay’s birthday. Definitely not. Any who…my cousin sang to him lol lol and made him feel REALLY bad for being out with two girls that weren’t me…on his “birthday” (Shaw didn’t know that we had broken up.) Anyways, He took them too a movie as well…guess who was there? Zach. Haaaa Omg. The two of them texted me THE MOMENT they saw each other. I was rolling on the floor in hysterics, and my mom was freaaaaaaaaked out. It was hilarious.
So if those arent like, the funniest coincidences of ALL time…I honestly don’t know what would be.
=D
So here is a pretty freaking hilarious story if I do say so myself.
Last night Jay took two of his old girl friends (not girls he dated, just his friends) out to dinner and a movie.
Wellllll He took them to McGrath’s Fish house…which is where my Cousin, SHAW, works. She was there. (and we were babysitting Killian) Well apparently Jay went to the bathroom, and the two girls (Jessica, and Priscilla) told the Waiter that it was Jay’s birthday. Definitely not. Any who…my cousin sang to him lol lol and made him feel REALLY bad for being out with two girls that weren’t me…on his “birthday” (Shaw didn’t know that we had broken up.) Anyways, He took them too a movie as well…guess who was there? Zach. Haaaa Omg. The two of them texted me THE MOMENT they saw each other. I was rolling on the floor in hysterics, and my mom was freaaaaaaaaked out. It was hilarious.
So if those arent like, the funniest coincidences of ALL time…I honestly don’t know what would be.
=D
Monday, January 12, 2009
You know...
you know you're a high schooler when:
1. You have to be reminded to keep your feet off the doors, repeatedly.
2. There is a rumor going around the school that someone died.
3. uhm I'm not really sure, but I mean I'm sure there's something...oh yeah, the hallways smell like BO.
on to the topic of the day...
Death.
Death in my dreams. Which was lame. And scary.
Death in my book.
Death that's physician assisted.
Yuck Yuck Yuck.
Let's talk about something new.
How about how I have NO authority in this class, at all.
Jake and I had a sing along in ASB today =D
we sang Love Story.
It was amazing times infinity.
I dont think my knuckle is in the right place.
=/
uhm, just to clarify I am slightly confuzzled.
what on EARTH is going on here?
Nope, no profanity.
Let's talk about this....
Love is patient, Love is kind,It does not envy, it does not boast,It is not proud, It is not rude,It is not self-seeking,It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth.Love always protects, always trusts,always hopes, always perseveres.Love bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.Love never ends.
Okay really?
I am not able to love...
it's impossibleeeeee.
haha jkjkjk
1. You have to be reminded to keep your feet off the doors, repeatedly.
2. There is a rumor going around the school that someone died.
3. uhm I'm not really sure, but I mean I'm sure there's something...oh yeah, the hallways smell like BO.
on to the topic of the day...
Death.
Death in my dreams. Which was lame. And scary.
Death in my book.
Death that's physician assisted.
Yuck Yuck Yuck.
Let's talk about something new.
How about how I have NO authority in this class, at all.
Jake and I had a sing along in ASB today =D
we sang Love Story.
It was amazing times infinity.
I dont think my knuckle is in the right place.
=/
uhm, just to clarify I am slightly confuzzled.
what on EARTH is going on here?
Nope, no profanity.
Let's talk about this....
Love is patient, Love is kind,It does not envy, it does not boast,It is not proud, It is not rude,It is not self-seeking,It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil,but rejoices with the truth.Love always protects, always trusts,always hopes, always perseveres.Love bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.Love never ends.
Okay really?
I am not able to love...
it's impossibleeeeee.
haha jkjkjk
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I saw God today
I am not a waste of time.
I cant make everyone happy, but I try.
That is a mistake.
Trying to please others will lead to being taken advantage of.
And after you’ve been all used up nobody wants you anymore.
And heartache is the worst kind of pain.
“Do you know who you are?”
“No, it’s a beautiful thing, I can be whoever I want to be, No one can define me if I havent defined myself”
How can you judge who a person is if you havent lived their life? My life is unique, as is every single person’s on the planet. We all do different things, and test different waters.
Trying to change people is the worst idea. I cant change someone…they have to willingly change on their own. Heck. I can barely change myself…how can I expect someone else to mend their ways?
Uhm.. The words get all confused, but you’ll get the gist.
It’s been a weird weekend.
It’s a cool story though, and I am SO happy.(you'd never guess by the words on the screen though)
=D
I saw God today.
I cant make everyone happy, but I try.
That is a mistake.
Trying to please others will lead to being taken advantage of.
And after you’ve been all used up nobody wants you anymore.
And heartache is the worst kind of pain.
“Do you know who you are?”
“No, it’s a beautiful thing, I can be whoever I want to be, No one can define me if I havent defined myself”
How can you judge who a person is if you havent lived their life? My life is unique, as is every single person’s on the planet. We all do different things, and test different waters.
Trying to change people is the worst idea. I cant change someone…they have to willingly change on their own. Heck. I can barely change myself…how can I expect someone else to mend their ways?
Uhm.. The words get all confused, but you’ll get the gist.
It’s been a weird weekend.
It’s a cool story though, and I am SO happy.(you'd never guess by the words on the screen though)
=D
I saw God today.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Traitor?
Hahaha
So, I totally forgot to tell you about my AP Biology experience this morning...
We played Jeapordy, which, as apposed to the previously scheduled reading assignment, takes the cake. Uhm, half way through...my team (made up of Blaine, Alexis, and Jaxsen) was losing terribly...Other teams had people such as Eva Hampton, Hiedi, Kate, Kiely, and so the losing thing is not such a shocker. Any who, we were given the choice to trade one of our players, for a different player...I volunteered myself (because, honestly...I was plotting something) My team switched me for Jessica, and I was placed on Kate, Kiely, and Heidi's team. haha One question in, and Alexis blatently states "Ema just screwed us over...I think." Oh yes, Lex, I did. =D
needless to say my team won. And I have been shunned from my table.
And Now I am recieving texts that label me the "traitor" hha
My mom thinks this is funny =D we just laughed a lot.
Imma eat now =D
lata gata
So, I totally forgot to tell you about my AP Biology experience this morning...
We played Jeapordy, which, as apposed to the previously scheduled reading assignment, takes the cake. Uhm, half way through...my team (made up of Blaine, Alexis, and Jaxsen) was losing terribly...Other teams had people such as Eva Hampton, Hiedi, Kate, Kiely, and so the losing thing is not such a shocker. Any who, we were given the choice to trade one of our players, for a different player...I volunteered myself (because, honestly...I was plotting something) My team switched me for Jessica, and I was placed on Kate, Kiely, and Heidi's team. haha One question in, and Alexis blatently states "Ema just screwed us over...I think." Oh yes, Lex, I did. =D
needless to say my team won. And I have been shunned from my table.
And Now I am recieving texts that label me the "traitor" hha
My mom thinks this is funny =D we just laughed a lot.
Imma eat now =D
lata gata
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Mama Mia!
...
^^^ hahaha
today has been REALLY funny.
it began with the punching out of my ceiling...uhm I'm not sure WHAT I was dreaming about, but I punched it nonetheless.
Anywho then Sawyer drove me to school, it was the usual Swedish singing and such.
And then I got to see Cait-uh-lyn Hoefer.
And then I got some coffee.
And then I got excited about my project for ASB.
And then we watched Mama Mia...sort of
and on top of that Allie and I were laughing about the silly thing I said..that make Sierra blush.
bell Just rang.
my life is boring...I need more to talk about.
tata
^^^ hahaha
today has been REALLY funny.
it began with the punching out of my ceiling...uhm I'm not sure WHAT I was dreaming about, but I punched it nonetheless.
Anywho then Sawyer drove me to school, it was the usual Swedish singing and such.
And then I got to see Cait-uh-lyn Hoefer.
And then I got some coffee.
And then I got excited about my project for ASB.
And then we watched Mama Mia...sort of
and on top of that Allie and I were laughing about the silly thing I said..that make Sierra blush.
bell Just rang.
my life is boring...I need more to talk about.
tata
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